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ten days will christmas. half a month left untill a nice new fresh start. i can't wait for next year- i have a lot planned. not like activities or anything, but personal things; like changes. someone in my family every year who thinks they're witty like my dad or grandad will say 'i'm not making any resulutions becuase then, come next new year eve, i wont be disapointed if i havent lost weight, saved more money or found a partner'. which i suppose i can relate to on some levels because every year its the same- 'lose some weight, mature a little, find a decent guy, save more money, eat healthier', i haven't lost much weight, i have matured a bit but not much, i've become friends with more decent guys but nothing more than that, i've saved about seventy pounds this year which is nothing considering i can drive in september and i need to get a car and i suppose i have eaten a bit healthier. my efforts disapoint me. this year, those ones will still remain, but i'm going to add some more like 'do more with my life'. that makes me sound so boring and that i dont get out much. i do, i promise. but i mean to try and use the internet less. sometimes i do five blogs in a day which is ridiculous- all i'll have to do is check my facebook, talk for a short while on msn, do a blog or two then do something else. i don't have to sit infront of a screen all my life. i also want to get back into reading but the only books that interest me are music books- but thats no problem with the help of hmv and fopp. i'm going to make a list (i told you i have o.c.d with making lists) of all the things i want for next year and print it out and fold it up with the christmas stuff for my bedroom. so come this time next year i can tick off what i've done. and i'm going to try hard this time.

picture: me (right- drinking from the bottle) and emily a year ago. it's bad quality because it's from emily's phone, not a camera